Life

Today, I have realized how conscious I am about the way I see my life transforming. It is quite peculiar.

I spoke to my cousin Mimi (pronounced Mim-Mee, not Mee-Mee) in regards to class registration because she works as a counselor in the special services department at my school, but I had no clue of the conversation that was in store. We pretty much talked about life. What a freakin’ coincidence. Not.
Well, I mean, when is someone not ever talking about life?

There is so much going through my head right now that I honestly don’t know what to type out first.

We talked about the past, present, and future; our convo in a nut shell. It really just opened my eyes about how this transformation is so present and so undeniable. My favorite part of the conversation was when Mimi stated that I get to start off with a clean slate and start new. It is so amazing to think that I am the one who is branding my future and that I am in the one in charge of who I am and get to be. Pretty much, I get to configurate what computer programs I want to have installed and what settings I want to save and erase. This is AWESOME! It’s exhilirating, but also kind of scary.

My life right now seems to be moving pretty smoothly, but I am experiencing what I had when I was younger. When I was about, say, still in elementary or middle school, I honestly thought I was going to die before highschool. My life ahead of me seemed so far away and so black. I felt like I was blind, how tell hell was I supposed to know where I was going!? Well, obviously, no one knows. Our lives aren’t written in stone. We have the opportunity to change and create our future.

I am really excited for the new year. I will have even more of a life changing experience once the new year starts, literally. I will be leaving Los Angeles to fly to Toronto January 1st, 2011 then to make my way to the Holy Land of Israel January 2nd. I got accepted to travel through a program called Birthright, which basically means by being a Jew it is your right to visit the Holy Land. Heck yes, I am excited! I thank God I am Jewish. A perfect time in my life to see the world. Plus with my new camera, I am documenting EVERYTHING! This is something I never want to forget.

Birthright supports a free 10-day trip with an included itinerary of everything that is planned, but you can extend your trip if you would like. As advertised for the group I chose to be a part of, the trip is 60% action, 20% Israeli culture, and 20% spiritual. Sounds fine with me. EXCITED! My friend Yuval is currently living in Israel at the moment and I asked him if he would be willing to let me stay with him if I extended my trip and he said, “You can stay as long as you want!” We are both excited. It is going to be amazing. So, my trip will be about 3 weeks. It will be from January 2nd – 22nd. I will be back in Los Angeles by the 23rd. Whoopee! Did I mention I was excited?

2010

This past year I have learned a lot.

I may not be able to recall every single thing I have learned within this year but I have realized how much can change in so little time. When I go through a certain change in my life I feel as though I have to have some type of renovation such as get a new haircut, purchase a new phone, hang out with different people, and so on, by which I already have done pretty much all that except get a new hairdo. I am debating that topic at this time. I wish I could do wild and crazy things with my hair, but my hair is pretty much down the drain anyways and I don’t think I should damage it furthermore. Totally just rambled, but that’s okay. It’s my blog. ;)

Anyways, I recently got out of a toxic relationship that lasted roughly about three years. Yeah, I love him and all but he’s not for me and it was meant to end. As you can see how that was a large part of my life (from what little you know), I felt as though I needed to change because this was a BIG CHANGE for me. Not bad whatsoever but, actually, a very good change. I wish him all the best in his endeavors but I have things I need to take care of and, I hate to say it, but he was getting in my way. I am kind of glad it ended the way it did because it couldn’t have happened any other way. So, bye bye to that.

Since this big mishap, it has put in me a position of critical thinking and the eyes to see new ideas and possibilities I can create. I want to live outside the box and explore.  I am excited! I got a new camera and it is my baby.. I just need to learn how to use it.

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